Quite a while ago I tried to paint how I feel about my Christian faith. Because it means so much to me I found that it was just too difficult to do.
(Here’s a link to those first attempts: Faith and Love Attempt One)
Then a week or so ago I sketched a picture of a shepherd with a lamb on his shoulders which kind of said what I wanted to say.
So I re-sketched this out onto proper cold-pressed watercolour paper…
Then I had a go at painting it with Winsor and Newton Artists Watercolours..
At first it looked really wishywashy and pale and I felt all fed up and annoyed with myself for doing a bad job – again. But then the next day I decided that I had nothing to lose if I painted more layers over the top. So I did – lots and lots of layers. Here’s the final painting…
It’s not perfect at all but it does touch my heart in the way I wanted it to. It just has, for me, that feeling of being loved and cared for which I get from my faith.
Because of the autism I have a lot of difficulty accurately communicating what I really feel with words which I find very frustrating especially when people start getting upset with me and I’ve done the very best I can do. My language skills are pretty good generally but I don’t have the usual social context in which most people seem to operate – I’m always misunderstanding the effects which my language has and not getting the whole social aspect of communication. For me, saying “A, B and C”, just means, “A, B and C”. There is no social context, no what they call ‘side’ no ‘reading between the lines’ (which means understanding that there is a subtext in some communication) because I am basically blind to all of this. I can’t ‘see’ social context or non-straight-forward communication. But with pictures I feel that I have a genuine way I could potentially communicate well and accurately in a way which isn’t constantly misunderstood. I have a fighting chance.
I feel really pleased about this picture because it does, for me, finally say what I want to say. 🙂
Wow – many thanks!
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Great art!
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I’m really glad. 🙂
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This uplifted me. Thank you.
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