October Ink – Ice, Music and Intimacy

This is the last but one post for the whole Inktober thing. At first I quite enjoyed drawing everyday but as things got busier at school and my health became more problematic it got harder and I had to slow down. I also felt that the discipline of drawing based on a word was good and irritating at the same time. It was good because my imagination and creativity had to follow as yet untrodden paths which helped me come up with some pictures I would not otherwise have drawn. It was irritating because art is one of my deepest pleasures and to follow some arbitrary words wasn’t always where my heart wanted to go. I think the best thing to have come out of it from my point of view was a chance to really work hard in one medium – pen and ink. The worst thing was the self-imposed pressure to get stuff done, especially as I was finishing all of this off in the October half term holiday so I didn’t have to work on it at all during the most demanding half term of the school year.

So these pictures were of a shell…

…a Cornet…

And the pattern of frost you can sometimes see on car windscreens in the early morning as you go off to work…

I really enjoyed drawing the ice although I couldn’t get close to the perfection of the actual frost you can sometimes see. Nature is a grand master when it comes to painting. I also really enjoyed drawing the Cornet.

At a teenager I played the Cornet and Trumpet in various brass bands, wind bands and orchestras as well as a Trad Jazz band. It was a privilege to play those parts as I often got the tune or main theme. It was a bit scary too though because you can’t hide a mistake if you’re playing a trumpet or cornet. The thing I liked most about that was becoming fully part of one another as we all played together.

There is a closeness in playing with a group of other musicians which is very intimate. Like other forms of intimacy it seems to bind together those who take part in it. You get to feel a sense of the inside of another person when you play music together. It’s like you can feel their heart singing inside the music right next to your own. Autism frequently makes me feel adrift from other people and they sometimes seem like little black boxes where all I can know is their input and output patterns, but with music I can see where otherwise I am blind. It’s a real joy.


6 thoughts on “October Ink – Ice, Music and Intimacy

  1. I love it that you too share the experiences I have of how it feels to play music with others. You sound very musical too!

    I was lucky with the ice picture. Just a week or so before I drew it, I had gone outside to go to work early one morning and saw that exact pattern on my windscreen. I felt really sad to have to clean it off so it was lovely to have a go at recording it on paper.


  2. Nice work Jo – I particularly like your skilled depiction of light reflections on the cornet.
    For me, music is a multi-faceted blessing to existence. but then, so are most creative / expressive activities. Have a great new year.

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  3. I’m a musician too and increasingly yearn for that shared experience and intimacy one gets from playing in an ensemble. As a pianist I do a lot of accompanying—for exams, recitals, concerts and competitions—but also love playing in ensemble, whether it’s with fellow musicians in a domestic setting or amateur orchestras that need a piano part covered for public performance. I also get to regularly sing in a choir and an acapella group, a different kind of experience but just as enjoyable. So I totally appreciate the musical experiences you describe!

    I did particularly like the frost pattern drawing. It’s been years, what with improved insulation and efficient heating, since I last saw these icy ferns but they were as regular as clockwork when I was growing up in the late 50s and early 60s. You’ve captured that memory perfectly, Jo.

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